'Jerelineee**

♥ Friday, December 02, 2005

JERELINE ONG SIN LAY ♥♥♥ DENNIS NG BOON PENG

baby ,,i miss you! how i wish i can see you ~ i realise that i can't live with out you by my side..for everithing i do it is wrong without you..everithing jux don't seem right~ =.(( do you noe something? you are the first guy i share all my secrets with..and you noe my everithing..i am realli veri glad that god actually gave someone like you to me!=)) i don wan other guys in my life animore..this i swear to you..i onli wan you..remenber how we swear in front of those goddess? we muz make it through..and i will never break my promises and the swear i make infront of the goddess with you..i wan you i wan you..you will be the guy for me! no one else! since the dae you nvr contact me..i am so worried..i wan to talk to you..i wan to noe that you are fine..are you fine over ther? these few daes i felt that my life is so useless with out you..you are the reason why i live..i realli need you..althought i evertime talk bout ronald in front of you..i noe how you feel now..i did think bout it..it's my wrong..you are more impt than him..i do not noe how to explain but somehow the feelin is not the same ..you are so so so important in my life! no guy can replace you..in the past,, when my ex and me break up..i usually will cry a few daes then i will forget bout it..you should noe this..althought we nvr break up..i find that you are so different..i don even wan to imagine i am holdin other guy hand..it is jux so disgustin..and my heart bleed..coz i rmb our swear and promises..and also the time we spent together..we had come thus far so i will not leave you even though you do..in my life is either you or no one else..i had made up my mind..i am serious this time round..when i sae i am serious you noe that i meant it! i will nvr giv up on you..NEVER!this relationship meant alot to me..i will never never destroy it..baby~ are you fine ther?i miss you so much..

To dennis parents:

uncle and aunty,, i noe you all don like me..i don noe the reason why..but i wish i noe..i realli wan to know and improve on those things you all don like ..and to clarify something aunty..you said i teach dennis to smoke..erm..i don even noe how to light up a ciggarette..so it is jux so impossible for me to teach him to smoke..that dae he smoke so much that your maid found out because of the smell on his shirt..i am angry too..coz i don like him to smoke too..so pls don misunderstand ! i am not that kind of bad girl you all think i am..and you said i teach him to drink..i never too..i do not noe how to drink alcholic drink..and even if i noe i can't drink too..coz i hav sensitive skin from young which dennis noe..whenever i touch alcholic drink my body will hav mani weird red patches..so it is impossible for me to teach him too..dennis told me that is his uncle take for him to drink one..so i am not the one..and for his POSB card..i nvr tell him to make a card..i nvr..from birth till now..i myself nvr did hav a POSB card in my life before..i don even noe how to use the machine to take money..so it is also impossible for me to teach dennis this too! i am clarifyin here becoz ther is no wae i can speak to u all..i noe you all will see my blog so i hope you read this..i am realli not that sort you all think i am..i cannot sae i am that great but for all these things i can use my life to swear that i nvr done them before!i am not blaming u all ..but jux hope that you all wun misunderstand..i hope you all can know me well..before sayin me like this..coz i am not..i felt hurt too..i am a human too..for the things i had done..i dare to admit..but all this obviously i nvr..dennis nvr speak up for me that dae..i also don noe why..but i realli hope you all can spend time to noe me well ..do not worry..i will nvr lead dennis astray ..i want my own bf to be a nice person too..no one would wan a bf that is bad rite..i believe you will understand one dae aunty! aniway dennis is realli important to me..pls allow him to be with me..and let's us hav the time to know each other well..ok? let dennis and me hav a chance..as well as us ..i long to hav good relationship with dennis family too..everione wan to be happy..i wan everione to be happy too..be it dennis or you all..i wan everione i noe to be happy..after you read this..i hope you understand everithing well..i jux hope i can be with dennis..i am not like those girl outside that is so filrtatious..i can't sae change bf then change..and i don wish to change..dennis and me hav come so far..mani unhappy incidents happened..why not we make them a happy one..human onli live once..let's be happy and don let things continue like this..i am juz a girl with a mind far more childish than dennis..ther is realli no wae for me to lead him astray..even if ther is..i also wun do that..coz he is my future..why would i wan to tarnish my own future..i wan him to hav a goodlife too.. i believe you all wan to hav a goodlife too..so i wun destroy ur son~ aunty and uncle ..you all are not my enemy or someone i hate to the core..so why muz i harm ur son who is my beloved bf..i will never do that ! aniway i jux hope you all can read this and let's everione hav a chance ok? i love dennis alot..it is veri hard for me to find someone that i wish to last with ..and this person is ur son..pls noe me more..i am not like what u all think..hope you all will let me be with dennis..coz he is realli veri veri veri impt to me..=.((

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