♥ Monday, January 07, 2008

I don't know who to turn to, i don't know what to do by myself, i don't know how to express my feeling in the right way, i feel so useless. Why can't i just learn my lesson? Dennis is alr enough. Enough to kill me. Why can't i just do what i promise myself? I thought dennis is the right one for me but look what he did to me! I may have alot of bad points but i believe that's not a good reason for him to do such a cruel thing to me after what we've been thru for almost 2 years! I don't understand. Till you came into my life. You made my life whole. You made me found a reason to carry on with my life. You made me smile again. You do almost everything i like just to make me happy. You brough me to the park so i can stop thinking. You play with me even though it make you look stupid. You cry with me when i cried. You comfort me when i'm sad. I share my problems with you & you always try your best to solve them. You accompany me till late just to spend more time with me. You accompany me out everyday because i'm bored. You chatted with me on the phone till you fall asleep cause you know i don't like to be alone. So many things you've done for me. I decided to give love one last chance. I trust you so much. But in the end, guys is all the same. Just that the mistakes they made is different. Why must you do that? Do you know my trust for you decrease so much? It's a very big blow to me. I thought i'm the most important person to you. Sometimes, not everything can be easily reveal out by typing. But i'm not good at words too so most of time, i'll keep them to myself. You never once bother about it. I know you tried asking me what happend. In a very irritated & impatient tone. Do you think i will tell you? I'm a girl. No matter how long we've been together, went out together, joke together, i'm still a girl. I've got my fragile side. Why can't you be more understanding and patient towards me? Of 'cause i will fight back and not tell you a single thing when you replied me in that kind of tone. I will think that we're drifting apart and that you don't even care anymore although you assure me that you're not. How can i believe you? You tell me what should i do. I need your attention baby. I want you to treat me like before. Really sweet, gentle & patient. Why must everything changes? I feel like dying..