♥ Wednesday, June 16, 2010

If a guy can't give you warmth, then what would this love turn into?
Do i rely on you or do i really love you?
I know, you dote on me & give me almost everything i want
But, i can't feel any warmth from you
No one know how it feel to feel so insecure, incertain & to cry alone & solve everything alone
I'm a human, don't say all sorts of hurtful stuffs like i'm a non living thing & came hugging me and telling me not to leave a moment later.
When you're saying you love me, do you really mean it?
'Cause i don't understand how to be so two sided if you are just saying it for fun
When i truly came back to you & breaking up with another guy because of you
Do you think it is for fun? no, cause i really love you.
But i could no longer differenciate love & rely now.
Do you know i envy those girls that have their courting period all those stuffs & everything?
Anniversary, Planned dinner, Surprises, heart to heart talk etc...
Where did mine went to? I asked for them but i never get them.
& this show how much i mean to you? 'cause you don't even bother

It hurts, mentally & physically. You wouldn't know 'cause i wouldn't say.

& to you, i'm sorry 'cause i left halfway
i'm sorry cause i left just because i wanted to, without sparing a thoughts for you
i'm sorry cause we got so much left undone
i'm sorry cause i know if i don't leave, i will be lying to you & myself
i'm sorry cause i believe i do love him at that moment when i leave
i'm sorry cause i wanted to be true to myself and to everyone around me
i'm sorry cause there's so much you can do without me
& yes, sorry is useless.